I can only tell her so much, it's only fair. Again my fear strikes when I tell her this. I ring Abi and tell her, I can't help but cry down the phone and tell her I'm just having a bad day.

I need to get out of here, I need to get out of work. 5 minutes passes and I'm still in hysterics. Mr bipolar strikes again and hits me hard this time, I go into the toilet at work and I cry. I spoke to Abi on the phone and knowing I couldn't see her for over 5 days and especially seen we hadn't completely sorted us. I woke up on a high and went to work yet due to a lack of sleep and now working on my own, my mind is led elsewhere and despite my harshest efforts, I fall down the horrible trap of thinking too deeply into everything. So yesterday (Tuesday) I had a very strange day? Nothing ever runs smoothly does it? *sigh* It's just frustrating that we have to suffer because of some greaseball bastard. That's a massive deal and I know it's worth it eventually. Obviously I can only say so much to Abi, I can moan and rant which is what I typically do but I have to try and understand that she has completely upheaved her life, her friends and most of all her love for me.

I've lost friends who are friends with him.īut all of this is the same, I I I I I I, everythings I. I miss gigs in case he turns up for a fight. I sit round her house and miss out on talking to her for an hour because he calls her. We can't put a relationship thing on there in case he sees. I can't even post a status on facebook about it in case he sees it. The second reason is whisk us both away from our usual places and hide us to five days of pure heaven on our own. I'm treating Abi to a four star hotel in Edinburgh for her birthday mostly because it makes her happy and that smile is just so worth it. Yup, Abi's Ex Liam is in the fucking way again. The worst thing about a relationship, nope not the moaning.

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